From Hardwar, Baba proceeded to Rishikesh the same day. Coming across
a group of sadhus and sanyasis, Baba remarked, “Look at them. They
wear long hair, apply ash to their bodies, put on robes and give
spiritual discourses. This is only an outward show; within, they are
merged in Maya.
“They are hypocrites; it is a sin to pretend that one is away from
Maya. These so-called sadhus are full of desires and have thoughts of
eating, drinking and wearing fine robes. Outwardly, they show
themselves to be sadhus, but inwardly, they are quite the reverse.”
Baba concluded, “Only he who has annihilated himself is a real sadhu.
Baba did not seem happy in Rishikesh and left by train for Quetta. On
May 16th, (1929) while discussing some points with Chanji at the town
of Rohri, Baba suddenly fell ill. He could not rest and had frequent
loose bowel movements.
The month of May is extremely hot in India. The railway compartment
was overcrowded and stifling. Baba got down at Rohri station at 11:45
P.M. and stood motionless on the platform for a while. He complained
of heart pain and appeared ghastly pale. Restlessness overcame him;
one moment he would want to sit down and the next he would get up.
They spent the night on the open railway platform since the waiting
room was crowded, but the noise at the train station was so
bothersome, they left and sought shelter in a dharmashala.
The next day, Baba looked just as ill and the mandali were worried
about his condition. Instead of asking for something for relief, Baba
instructed them to sightsee through the town. Not one man liked
leaving Baba in this critical condition. They were completely taken
aback by his strange order. Their feelings were hurt and they ached to
ease Baba’s suffering.
Seeing their reaction, Baba remarked, “Always remember to stay above
your heart’s sentiments and wishes that are contrary to my orders. I
have to shatter your minds and hearts to pieces! The greatest service
is to obey me. Compared to my orders, your thoughts and emotions are
nothing. You cannot serve me if you fail to carry out my words; you
can only cause me greater pain.”
Reluctantly, the mandali went to the riverside to survey the sights
and bathe. After bathing in the stream, they returned.
Lord Meher, American ed., Bhau Kalchuri, Vol. 11, p. 1157.