This is my crucifixion !
Bhau Kalchuri, who was constantly near Baba on the last night said that at 9:30 p.m. Baba told him, “I am not this body.” At 10:30 p.m. and again at 12:30 a.m. Baba told him, “Don’t Worry.”
At 3:45 a.m. on Friday, 31st January, 1969, the following from the Mandali were called to be near Baba: Eruch, Bhau, Pendu (A. R. Irani), Padri and Dr. Goher. All of them nursed Baba with love and tried to relieve Him of His self-imposed suffering. At dawn, the men were relieved by the women Mandali. At 8:00 a.m. Mani, Rano, Francis, Pendu, Bhau, Chhagan, Padri and Eruch took up duty by Baba’s bedside.
Baba enquired whether Dr. Ginde had arrived. When informed in the negative, He asked Adi to phone and inform Dr. Grant at Poona that he should not delay Dr. Ginde as he was wanted at Meherazad. That morning, Baba often asked for Dr. Ginde and each time He would gesture a “G,” He would rock with a severe spasm and wince at the unbearable pain. Baba also developed severe pain in His back. Baba had said on 25th February, 1964, “I have suffered much and will have to suffer much more till I break My silence.” On another occasion He had said, “I suffer every second of My life untold agony.” Had it not been said, “The blood of the lamb washeth away the sins of the world.”
Baba’s greatness lies not in His manifestation but in suffering for the cause of humanity. While working for the spiritual upliftment of humanity, the Avatar has to take upon Himself the entire suffering of the world clamouring for its deliverance. This suffering for the world steeped in ignorance becomes the Avatar’s crucifixion. Baba’s life on earth was a crucifixion at each moment. Baba, referring to His suffering, had told Dr. Donkin on Thursday, 30th January, “This is My crucifixion.”
Seeing that allopathic medicines seemed to give Baba no relief, Padri gave some biochemic pills for relieving spasms. The drug had to be administered every ten minutes. At 12 noon, Padri gave the fourth dose of his medicine. After this dose, Baba remarked that the pill was not helping Him at all. Baba asked Dr. Goher to stop giving Him injections and even reminded the Mandali, “Do not forget that I am God.” Baba had once said, “I am God, God the Beyond and God in human form. I draw you ever closer to Me by giving you frequent occasions of My companionship. But familiarity often makes you forget that I am God. I know all what happens and will happen. Whatever happens does not happen without My will. Knowingly I allow things to happen in their natural course.”
Available photos of some of Baba’s mandali attending to His physical form during the last days of His Ministry on Earth.
Mehera, Mani, Dr. Goher, Naja, Rano, Meheru, Adi Sr., Eruch, Padri, Bhau, Francis, Pendu, Aloba, Dr. Donkin, Chagan – Mani & Bhau’s photo © Etzion Becker