(April 1950) According to the conditions, Eruch was doing his utmost to fully carry out Baba’s behests by being alert and cautious in obeying Baba’s orders. But not a single day would pass without some unavoidable mishap in the daily management of household affairs, and Eruch would have to submit himself to Baba’s severe criticism and scolding on one pretext or another.
Eruch would always placidly admit his faults, and so one day Baba threatened him, “I will throw up my hands with you and everything if you do not stop mechanically saying it was your fault and asking for forgiveness!” Despite Eruch’s admitting to his own alleged mistakes, Baba was annoyed by this even more, and Eruch was blamed again. He was damned if he did and damned if he didn’t! There was no escape.
In this path, a two-edge sword hangs over the heads
of those for whom the Master has special love.
Following in his path leads one to the edge of his blade,
and only experience can convey what this ultimately means.
Lord Meher, American ed., Bhau Kalchuri, Vol. 10, p. 3587.